Whew! ...so I've been spending an unhealthy amount of time sitting in front of a computer basically for this:

www.lastfm.com

Basically, I've been trying to get my music on as many sites as I can. It's a weird feeling of getting something done and still feeling gross for sitting in one place all friggin day. I eventually do all this stuff because I collapse under the feeling of "having" to do something with my day. I am trying to do legitimate work as little as possible while I'm "working" on art and music. I am repeatedly slapped in the face by how honestly lazy I am. It's really incredible. I can out-sloth just about anyone I'd think.

I say all of this because I guess I don't know what I'm doing. I am 26. I am sitting in the eye of a storm. Mostly of great things and blessings, all on the verge of falling into place. But I am too caught up with the unsettled nature of it all. I never liked writing things that I felt were too weepy or demanding of others attention. Like crying in public. But it's necessary sometimes I guess. It's crazy; my days are solid and bathed in goodness and protection. Yet, my emotional state is so turbulent. This life is good! It is joyous and I'm am so glad that my Father doesn't wail on me for being stupid about it. Anyway, I'm glad to be alive. I'm thankful for what my God has blessed my hands to be able to produce. Thanks for listening.

all the love.
Scott